It’s been awhile! So sorry for the long hiatus between posts. When I revamped this blog the last time (lol), I decided that I wanted to create weekly content to share with everyone. Not only was this the right decision in terms of consistency, but also more selfishly it was the right reason because:
- I needed to practice being vulnerable and authentic in front of other people,
- I needed to practice my communication and word choice, and
- I needed to take responsibility for filling my own love tank. While sharing myself– as well as my thoughts, feelings, and ideas– with other people is my love language, it’s my responsibility to give myself love.
Sorry that I fell short here. I have just added a part-time job over the summer as well as another part-time job that will be more long-term. In addition, I have been trying to honor my commitments to play gigs with heavy time commitments that I signed up for back when I was only working 15 hours per week, and trying not to die and/or kill someone as a result of suddenly being completely overextended and overbooked.
But, oh well. It’s all worth it! My finances are now in tip-top shape, and I no longer spend any time whatsoever ruminating about them. If that doesn’t give me the incentive to keep going, I don’t know what will.
Now, if only I could manage to adjust my body clock to fall asleep at 10 pm and wake up at 5 am, instead of falling asleep at 11 pm and waking up at 6 am, then I would really be golden. Unfortunately, this hasn’t happened yet and I’ve been 15 min late to work pretty much every day that I go. (Side note: I am pleasantly surprised by the number of people who have been understanding about this problem and have given me grace about it. So far, only a couple of people have not understood and have drawn the incorrect conclusion that me being late means that I don’t want to be there / I’m not serious / I’m not a good employee).
Anyway, I finally had an evening off where I wasn’t expected to do anything or be anywhere, so I figured I would post an update about how everything is going.
To summarize, I have been working to adjust my self-care priorities to accommodate the tighter schedule. It’s been quite a challenge, but I think once I get my sleep cycle on track then it will be a lot smoother/better.
One thing I have been thinking about lately is how to have more fun in my life. It occurred to me that I’ve changed myself so much that I don’t even know what I consider to be fun anymore. There are things that I used to think were fun, but I don’t really think they’re fun anymore. I’ve been trying to find out which fun things from my past to bring back, versus which ones to leave behind and replace with new fun things (whatever they might be).
Today it occurred to me that the main reason that I don’t know how to have fun anymore is because I am constantly preoccupied with administrative tasks and adulting responsibilities. The reason I discovered this today was because I finally caught myself up on this huge mountain of paperwork and mail that I had been behind on, and then after it was done I had all this free time that I didn’t know what to do with at first. This lasted only a short time. Then I actually practiced my viola more than playing through my warm-up exercises. Then I read a book for an hour that I had been behind on reading. Then I took a walk and got a massage! So good. I really enjoyed that.
On top of all that, I have been slowly revamping my website towards my new business of teaching online courses, and have updated my bio here. I’ve been planning my outlines and syllabuses for the different courses and have started working on course writing and creation. I’m really excited about this new venture and I will share more details soon! I’m hoping to devote more time towards the course creation and filming this summer once my teaching is done in a couple of weeks.
So that’s it! That is the update in a nutshell. I’m really excited for all these changes coming – just need the time to work and prioritize and enjoy it 🙂